FROM STREET 2 DEEN MY STORY!!!
I grew up in a poor part of southLondon, where most men get different women pregnant and run away 95% percent of the time, so my mother was forced to take responsibility for 2 roles. She was a caring mother but also had to be the father aswell and get two jobs to pay the rent and bills because my irresponsible father was not around!
So I was left at home while my mum was working hard and I was raised by TV and music, Hollywood, MTV and I saw all the bling bling, nice cars, the money, the boats, the houses, the women and all the rest and I wanted it all!
So I looked around my environment and surroundings and the people it looked like had money and material things where the crack, weed , heroin dealers and also the credit card fraudsters, armed robbers, burglars and gang members.
So I thought college and university looks like a waste of time, all the people going there are broke, so I linked up with a friend from secondary school that was already in a gang and started hanging around with him.
At that time my mum had also chucked me out because of my unruliness and bad behavior towards her and sometimes to my younger brother and younger sister.
I ended up for the next years of my life going in and out ofcourt probation, comunity service, police stations and jail and this became mylife!.
Until one day in jail when I was bored like every other day and I picked up a Quran and read it and one sentence hit me:
“Is there any one more misguided than the person who makes his desires his God.”
And for the first time I realized that money,girls and my desires were the false God’s that I worshipped and I was a 100% slave to them, without actually knowing it.
And the Quran helped me to realize, the people that I was following unconsciously religiously , were the rappers, actors and mcs these were my false prophets because I tried to act like them, look like them, dress like them , talk like them, dance like them, even think like them, in every single way.
And what really shocked me were the clubs, raves and parties I went to religiously on the weekend because my false prophets i.e. the rappers ordered me and told me thats where i have to be! and not just be there i have to be, smoking alot, drinkingalot , getting high alot , picking up girls alot, to prove my faith and they told me this in there sermons and preachings in there tapes and cds
and I came to realize i was extremely religious without knowing it!!!
And it took this book, the Quran, to let me know for one moment in my life that I was worshiping myself and money and not God who I should be worshipping.