EVEN THOUGH IM A CONVERT I HAVE FELL OF DA DEEN BEFORE
AND WALLAHIE IT WAS THE WORST TIME IN MY LIFE, IT WAS WORST THAN WHEN I WAS HOMELESS OR IN JAIL
ITS DA GREATEST AND BIGGEST DEPRESSION A HUMAN BEING CAN EVER HAVE
BECAUSE WHEN YOUR A KAFFER INTO, MUSIC, CLUBBING, SMOKING, DRINKING, DRUGS, SLEEPING AROUND
YOUR JUST FOLLOWING DA CROWD, DOING WHATEVER EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING
YOU NEVER ACTUALLY REALLY, SIT DOWN AND REFLECT, ON LIFE OR THINK WHY DO I EXIST ? OR CONTEMPLATE
UNLESS SOMEONE DIES OR YOUR IN A SERIOUS ACCIDENT
THEN YOU MIGHT REFLECT FOR THAT PERIOD BUT AFTER THAT PERIOD PASSES
YOU JUST GO THROUGH EVERY DAY LIKE A ROBOT OR A HAMSTER ON DA WHEEL, LIKE EVERYONE ELSE
BUT WHEN YOU TAKE THE SHAHADA OR YOUR BORN INTO A MUSLIM FAMILY AND YOUVE BEEN STRONG ON DEEN
AND TASTED THE SWEETNESS OF IMAN , EVEN FOR 1 DAY, A MONTH OR YEARS
AND THEN YOU FALL BACK OF DEEN, INTO A LIFE OF HARAM, FOR WHATEVER OF BAD CHOICES WE ALONE MADE
THEN YOU CANT EVEN ENJOY DOING ALL THE HARAM THINGS YOU DO
BECAUSE YOU KNOW B4 YOU DO IT, WHILE YOUR DOING IT AND AFTER YOU DID IT, YOU SHOULDN’T AND ITS BIGTIME WRONG
AND THAT ALLAH THE CREATOR OF THE WHOLE UNIVERSE ,THE ALL KNOWING, ALL SEEING, ALL HEARING, ALL WISE
CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE IS FULL AWARE AND WATCHING YOU !!!
LISTEIN TO THE MUSIC!!!, SMOKE THE WEED!!!, DRINK THE ALCHOL!!!, GO TO DA CLUB!!!, SHAVE OF THE BEARD!!!, GO OUTSIDE WITH NO HIJAB!!, SLEEP WITH THE HARAM PERSON!!!,
AND THE GUILT OF BEING UNGRATEFUL TO ALLAH WHO PROVIDES EVERYTHING FOOD, DRINK, AIR, LIFE
AND THE REMINDER OF, DEATH, THE GRAVE, JUDGEMENT DAY, HELLFIRE COME BACK TO HAUNT YOU BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOUR LIFE IS 90% HARAM OR MORE AND YOUR NOT EVEN TRYING A LITTLE
THE ONLY WAY YOU CAN “ENJOY THIS HARAM LIFESTYLE A LITTLE”, IS IF YOU TRY TO REMOVE ANYTHING ISLAMIC TOTALY FROM YOUR LIFE
SO YOU SURROUND YOUR SELF WITH NON MUSLIMS AND MUSLIMS FRIENDS, WHO ARE TOTALLY INTO BIGTIME HARAM, MUSIC, SMOKING, DRINKING,CLUBBING, DRUGS, SLEEPING AROUND
AND YOU TOTALLY CUT YOURSELF COMPLETELY OFF, FROM HEARING ANYTHING ABOUT ISLAM, STOP GOING JUMMAH, GOING ISLAMIC TALKS, STOP LISTEN AND WATCHING LECTURES AT HOME, AVOID ALL!!!ISLAMIC MUSLIM FRIENDS ON DEEN AND IGNORE ALL THEIR CALLS
SO YOU CARRY ON THIS LIFE
SO YOU PUT MORE MUSIC ON, WATCH MORE MOVIES, DO MORE CLUBBING, HANGOUUT WITH MORE NON MUSLIMS?AND DUNYA MUSLIMS FOR YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS!!!
UNTIL ISLAM BECOMES JUST A FAINT MEMORY IN THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD
AND THE ONLY THING THATS ISLAMIC ABOUT YOU, IS YOUR NAME
AND EVEN THAT IS ABBREVIATED MUHAMED = MOE, AISHIA = ASIA
AND MAYBE YOU CELEBRATE EID “JUST FOR THE SAKE OF IT” BEACAUSE “MIGHT AS WELL EVERYONE ELSE IS”
BUT ITS A CULTURAL EID, DRINKING, SMOKING, GIRLS, BOYFRIENDS CLUBBING,
AND AT, COLLEGE, UNI, WORK, YOU STILL TAKE PART IN PAGAN CELEBRATIONS, LIKE CHRISTMAS, NEWYEARS, DIVALI, EASTER ETC ETC ETC
BUT SINCERELY AND TRULY YOUR VERY UNHAPPY, YOUR FACE IS SMILING BUT YOUR HEART IS CRYING BECAUSE IF YOUVE EVER BEEN ON DEEN PROPERLY BEFORE AND EVER TASTE THE SWEATNESS OF IMAN
AND THEN FELL OF THE DEEN, EVEN THOUGH YOU GOT THE FREEDOM OF DOING ANYING THINK HARAM YOU WANT
AFTER A WHILE THE “SHORT TERM JOY KICK” OF MUSIC, WEED, DRINK, CLUBS, SEX WARES OF
PLUS YOU KNOW THIS LIFE IS TOTYALLY HARAM SO YOU CAN NEVER FULLY RELAX SIT BACK AND “THINK THIS IS IT BLISS” BECAUSE ALLAH IS AT THE BACK OF YOUR MIND
AND EVEN IF YOUVE NEVER BEEN ON DEEN AND TASTED THE SWEETNESS OF IMAN AND YOU GET, RICH AND FAMOUS THAT AINT GONNA SATISFY EITHER
BECAUSE ALLAH DIDNT CREATE YOU TO JUST BE RICH AND FAMOUS SO YOUR GONNA FEEL EMPTY
BECAUSE DONT YOU SEE THAT RICH AND FAMOUS PEOPLE HAVE THE MOST FITNA AND PROBLEMS IN THEIR LIFE AND ONE OF THE HIGHEST RATES OF SUCIDE AND MEDICATION
SO WHAT IS THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS NOTE ?
THE WHOLE POINT OF THIS NOTE IS,
ME AS A CONVERT TO ISLAM, WHO AS ALSO FELL OF THE DEEN BEFORE, AND BEEN DE PRESSED AND MISERABLE AS A KAFFER AND A CONVERT NOT ON MY DEEN BUT LOOK LIKE I HAD THE MATERIAL THINGS AND LOOKED HAPPY
SO DEEP DOWN IN YOUR HEART YOU MUST FEEL THE SAME, WE ALL WANT TO BE GOOD MUSLIMS AND WE ALL TRYING ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS
IM CALLING YOU BACK YOU BACK, WE ALL SIN WE , WE ALL HAVE BAD DAYS, NO MATTER HOW HOW BIG THE BEARD OR HOW LONG THE HIJAB, YOU ARE ME AND I AM YOU, WE ARE MUSLIM BUT IF WE FALL OR COMMIT A HARAM, LETS NOT JUST TOTALY GIVE UP EVERYTHING ISLAMIC AND LIVE LIKE GANGSTAR RAPPER OR RNB CHICK LETS AT LEAST TRY
STEP 1. MAKE DUWWA AND BEG ALLAH, EVEN CRY TO MAKE YOU STRONGER
STEP 2. PRAY EVEN IF ITS AT LEAST 1 PRAYER A DAY
STEP 3. YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE MOSQUE AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK FOR JUMMAH, YOU HAVE TO AT LEAST BE IN SOME TYPE OF CONTACT WITH MUSLIMS, ON DEEN EVEN JUST SEEING MUSLIMS ON DEEN IS GOOD FOR YOUR IMAN AND IF NOT ONCE A WEEK, THEN ONCE A MONTH IS A MUST
STEP4. YOU HAVE TYO LISTEIN TO LISTEIN TO ISLAMIC TALKS ONCE IN A WHILE BECAUSE IF YOU DONT YOUR IMAN IS JUST GONNA STAY TINY AND NEVER BRANCH OUT AND GROW BIG AND MASSIVE
STEP 5. LAST BUT NOT LEAST YOU HAVE TO FIND AWAY TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH MUSLIMS ON DEEN, YOU HAVE TO IM NOT SAYING CUT ALL YOUR NON MUSLIM OR MUSLIMS DOING BIG HARAM BUT YOU NEED TO AT LEAST KNOWA SMALL GROUP OF BROS OR SIS THAT ARE ON DEEN WHO YOU CAN CHILL OUT ON DEEN WITH OR CALL FOR ADVICE OR GO FOR A WALK WITH
YOU ARE IN MY DUWWA THIS IS STREET OR DEEN SINGING OUT MAY ALLAH MAKE THIS DEEN EASIER FOR YOU AND BLESS YOU IN THIS LIFEE AND THE NEXT WA AYAKUM SALAM
